Peace and joy
Dear God,
You say I have the mind of Christ. What then is my task on earth? To speak of You and Your kingdom? I have not been where You have been, though You promise me I shall one day be there with You. I know so little of this world and all its politics, its history and its social hierarchies. I feel like a mere infant at times, when conversations revolve around the apparent famous, and I realise I have not followed the lives of princes and princesses, kings and queens, and other governing bodies.
Ignorance is inexcusable, I find, and yet I make every excuse in the book not to read the newspaper - the pages are too large, it is not well written, I don't understand the background - or the magazines - tacky gossip, malicious slander, cosmetics, fashion and who has dimples in what places - please, give me some meat! Something to chew on, to make my mind tick over and not stand still.
When it comes to spiritual matters, I feel like I am standing behind closed curtains behind which sits an audience who want to be entertained, who want to laugh and be touched, whose issues they want to deal with in a fresh and exciting manner, in a way that brings peace and joy, but one mention of You and all anticipation knots up into a ball of wire, as though You are mere Judge and not path to this joy and peace. I reacted much the same, I guess. I was much the same before I knew You, before I started this relationship with You.
I think I will write to You directly from now on. It seems nobody else is reading my thoughts in any case. Okay, sorry for the self-pity! Bless Your cotton socks, if You have any, and good night!
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