Decisions, decisions

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Sometimes you know that you know that you know, 
but doing anything about your knowledge feels like stepping out of quicksand. 

I can't really tell what the theme of my heart is today. 
Life has knocked me into realism. 

Today I was offered a job for next year where I could earn a few thousand grand more.
Yesterday my flatmate who was just visiting home has informed me that she is not coming back until next year.  
This last week my new friend arrived at my doorstep after leaving her job. 
And I have had a rich, tall, dark and handsome man tell me he likes me. 

It's been an interesting few days and weeks. 
I planned to go to Korea next year.  I wanted to earn more money.  And I wanted to travel. 

Are my friends right that going alone on a contract that ties accommodation, work and the visa together is a bad idea?  Did I not say I would never travel alone again?  

But if I stayed for a higher salary, would I be happy with my decision?  
Timing is everything, they say.  

God's timing is the best.  At church on Sunday the pastor said a missionary couple is coming to SA and the first port of call was a church, which made me think, I should do the same, and I have not.  I have been more concerned with my mental health than my spiritual health. 

Let things be as they may.  There is a time for everything.  God knows my desire to explore the world, and he knows my desire to be in a place where I can grow and move.  I am happy here.  So why leave?  Because mom and dad and sister think I should?  Because they think I am wasting my life here?  May God be the judge of that.  

I don't know what will make it clear to me that I should go or stay.  Then there is a question of when, where, how.  But what I do know is that God knows what is best for me, and I can trust Him to give me the answer.  What must I do, God?  Should I go to Korea?  Should I stay and work for the university?  I pray you tell me, in Jesus' name. 

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