Impressions after my first day

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My greatest wish at this point in my life is to love the children that I am teaching.  What I mean is that I would like to become a dedicated teacher who wants to not merely teach German, and geography, and biology, but to work harder than I’ve ever worked on anything, so that I can experience the fulfillment that comes from complete devotion to my calling. 

I believe God has sent me here, and I have always believed in education.  I fear getting into a rut, where I teach traditionally, without my heart.  I would like to be one of those teachers that inspire their students to learn for the sake of understanding, knowledge and wisdom.  I would like to take it slow rather than have them gulp down what I throw at them.  I know my shortcomings and my weaknesses, and I desperately need God to show me the better way.  I already know that the better way is slow and careful.  It is planned, prepared and inspired.  The way is adventurous and exciting.  It does not exclude spontaneity, but chaos. 

I pray the Lord anoints me with the spirit of learning so that I can share this spirit with the children, and teachers, if God gives me the grace.  I think the teachers are more experienced than I am, and they already have a spirit of learning, but whatever I can add to their lives, let me do so generously.  I forget administrative things easily, so I need special grace and mercy, but I hope moreover for greater focus and concentration in this area, so that this weakness can become my strength.  May the overwhelming feeling of not coping, not being good enough, not being interesting enough, not being organised well enough, dissipate with the love of Christ in me.  Please bless the children, my colleagues, and the children’s parents, in Jesus’ name. 

Let not fear conquer me, but Christ's love.

Comments

John said…
It will work out. ...and you will definitely inspire those around you. Its impossible for it not to happen with the Spirit of God living in you.
April 12, 2010 at 11:07 PM
Anonymous said…
Hey Sis,

You were born to be a teacher and your love for the kids will come through. You are a special teacher and with time you will come to see that!
May 26, 2010 at 12:04 AM
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